my saving grace

i am tired. too tired to care about anything. too tired to argue. too tired to be optimistic, to try get through each day without thoughts of slipping into an endless sleep. too tired to even try kill myself. no, trust me its not laziness or cowardice. too tired to fix all things broken. too tired to say "hi". too tired to smile. too tired to maintain feeble friendships and antiquated acquaintances. too tired to lie to myself. too tired to tell you that i like you. too tired to explain. i am very tired.



my life is a wreck and i know it. i hate to admit this but being in the army is just about the best thing for me at the moment. at least now i have some sense of purpose and belonging which was barely existent prior to enlistment. i don't feel at home at "home" anymore. bmt is my home. how sad.